Feeling glad it's over
Dec. 25th, 2019 10:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kayreI'm having a rather rough week. The early Christmas service went well, and left me feeling a bit better... until about 10 minutes after the service when the Diva cornered me. First she wanted to know if she could sing O Holy Night at the late service; then she asked for another song which I flatly refused to accompany without several days' practice. Then she was back to O Holy Night, with her daughters, and if I didn't want to accompany then they'd do it a capella, or was it that I didn't really want her to do it. I said yes, I had good music planned and am not comfortable with just throwing music together, especially for Christmas Eve. So she flanked me-- asked Pastor when she could do it, giving the impression that I'd said yes. So suddenly I heard her rehearsing a capella with 4 young women, having recruited two more. And they were excruciatingly bad, and belting it out like a Broadway showstopper. I went home for an hour, and when I returned she took offense when I asked them to rehearse elsewhere so I could warm up. I actually cowered behind the organ while they sang. I was careful; the only person who saw me was a young woman who actually fled the room.
On the home front, we live too far from our families to travel, so we try to gather in a few people in similar circumstances for the holidays. This year we invited 5 people in all. Two accepted, two said they'd let me know and then never did. In the end, no one showed up. I'm feeling like a waste of space right now... or at least like a cog in the church machine rather than a person.
On the home front, we live too far from our families to travel, so we try to gather in a few people in similar circumstances for the holidays. This year we invited 5 people in all. Two accepted, two said they'd let me know and then never did. In the end, no one showed up. I'm feeling like a waste of space right now... or at least like a cog in the church machine rather than a person.
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Date: 2019-12-26 10:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-12-26 11:58 am (UTC)You are a multi-talented fountain of grace.
And just wait till Diva finds herself sprouting warts all over the place. Clusters of awkward ones in moist folds. Broad obvious ones on highly visible space.
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Date: 2019-12-26 11:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-12-27 03:54 am (UTC)I am so sorry that you experienced rudenesses on many levels and that you are feeling so non-person-like. You do not deserve to be treated so badly, and I hope the next church stuff brings you more peace and joy.
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Date: 2019-12-31 01:26 am (UTC)Also the diva. Ugh. Glad that's over!